Got to get motivated

Funny, how before I ended up in this situation, I was running courses for women with post natal depression. There was lots to do with self help, getting motivated, positive thinking... the works.
Now here I am, and I think none of that applies to me because I am suffering a physical condition. It doesn't matter how positively I think, its still going to be there.
So, obviously, I should just stay depressed, unmotivated and continue to have no hope above that one day the pain might go away.

Except I'm getting sick of that. Its depressing, to say the least.

I made the resolution over the weekend, that I have to get up, do what I can, make a real go of it, and keep the hope that one day, the pain might go away.

So today, I got up an hour earlier. I did a few housewifey things. One of the kids is home with Monday-itis, poor sweetie... I hate Monday-itis, hee hee.
And I MADE myself get on with some work I needed to do. I sorted some end of year accounts - a big job finally out of the way.

Later I might make some dessert to have with dinner. I cant cook anymore, but I can do a short stint in the kitchen.

It all sounds feeble, but that's where I am... little steps indeed, but they are still steps forward.

And, I have a book I used in my course, Change the Way You See Things. I'm going to work more on that.

And then, I will work up to telling my husband my diagnosis of neuropathic pain, which I feel so ashamed of - that I failed to get better after all that fuss of major surgery. For me, it is a personal failure. Lets hope the course of these blogs sees a change in that.